December 2010
7 posts
Ashley 2.0 (11)
Will hopefully: Go to yoga three times a week and not just stretch for ten minutes on my mat at home and then nap. Be reading one nonfiction and one fiction book at all times, alternating between literary classics and contemporary work, and not just let new books pile up on her nightstand even as she’s ordering a new one with one-click from Amazon. Listen to her French podcast tous les...
Dec 20th
Special Occasions.
Sometimes when I would go out with my ex-boyfriend to a bar or a party and he would inevitably step away for a moment or two, I would be approached by a man. It didn’t happen often but it would from time to time. You can’t call it out immediately as a come-on, though, and just frostily say “I have a boyfriend!” anytime someone with a penis tries to speak to you, it’s...
Dec 19th
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Privileged Ennui
is today’s emotion. Gross, I know. 
Dec 18th
Self-taught
Anytime I feel myself feeling even the slightest bit of sexual desire for a man based on his accomplishments or creative output I mentally smack myself, I rail against it. I think it comes from the same place that my impulse to mentally smack myself when I feel myself feeling the slightest bit of sexual desire for a man who has the appearance of being rich, white, square-jawed athletic and WASPY...
Dec 17th
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Scarfy
When I was in college and still trying to decide what kind of “different” I was because I was at Sarah Lawrence and so it was more a question of which type of special and different you were, (because the question of your special-ness and different-ness had been answered irrefutably with the receipt of your admissions packet), I did a little experimentin’. I basically came out of...
Dec 11th
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What has grown crooked you can't make straight /...
Thoughts After Black Swan: Sometimes muscle and sinew is a desireable look; lots of times it’s just plain gross. Was Mila Kunis real? Am I dumb for asking that? Crotch rub : Black Swan as pussy thrust : Showgirls The Ecstasy of the Aughts looks like a Milk Thistle capsule A controlling mother is easily the most terrifying of all possible plot devices. Why do all Upper West Side...
Dec 7th
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